Appreciate to all memories you given and created by us. But it's pain. Deep and deep. And deep. Everything you gave is just around me and I am using it everywhere, everyday, every moment. I can't change them. Nothing can be replace that what you have gave to me. How are you, I would like to ask for now. You know what, I can feel I've change but not a lot.
I have too many of 'complicated', 'negative', 'impossible', 'fantasy', 'weird' thinking in my mind. They just popping out every single moment frequently. I really did not think it purposely. They just popping out. Trust me. I'm tiring of thinking such question. Unfortunately, I still have to solve it. Not now, maybe next, later or future. What they said, just leave it. Times will solve it slowly. Slowly. Slowly. And Slowly. How slow is it? Unsolvable question.
Every guy I met give me too much. I wont think that 'wow, this is what I should get it' or 'of course, he needs to give me everything I want' or maybe 'he must fulfill my satisfaction or not, say bye please'. I am very deeply appreciate what I've got what I have and what I know. Appreciate so much for them. You guys didn't me ANYTHING. Please don't tell me because you love me therefore you are willing to pay off anything for me. Please don't.
The blog is alive. Enjoy the day. Enjoy the blog.
Enjoy my world.